you're leaving
i know you are
you don’t even have to say it
you could even not know it yet
but you’re leaving, i swear
you can lay along the couch
speaking nonsense about nothing
i'll sit across from you
gently smiling
genuinely interested
but constantly distracted
waiting for you to leave

you’re going
you’re already out the door
i have the feeling
i'll not be seeing you anymore
you may not realize it yet
but you’re going, i swear
you can speak reassuring words
talk on and on about importance
i'll listen and wish to believe you
all the while resigned
to an empty night

i don’t know how to be
i've gotten so used to you
foolish me, letting my fingers
reach out to dip into our smile
what was i thinking
i should have remembered
that, eventually, you’d away

you’re done
though i can see you
you’re no longer here
you still don’t know it
i cannot be for you
dearest
you don’t see or hear me
never thought i'd be weak like this
never thought i'd hold on so tight
while pushing into that cold room where i stay locked away