This past weekend was amazing. Re-Friend and I have found ourselves in a very, very strange place, where we're dating -- no, seriously, that's basically what we're doing -- but not kissing or having sex. But we sleep in the same bed every weekend in our skivvies, spoon all night long, are openly affectionate with each other in public -- which, if you knew RF, is something he doesn't normally do.

And then, on Saturday, we played Rock Band with a small group of friends. I was having to leave early to go to a bachelorette party, but before I left, RF wanted to do one more song. (He was playing lead guitar and I was singing.) So, he picked it:

There's times where I want something more
Someone more like me
There's times when this dress rehearsal
Seems incomplete
But, you see the colors in me like no one else
And behind your dark glasses you're...
You're something else

Chorus:
You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
You're really lovely

You know some real bad tricks
And you need some discipline
But, lately you've been trying real hard
And giving me your best
And, you give me the most gorgeous sleep
That I've ever had
And when it's really bad
I guess it's not that bad

(Repeat Chorus)

So many moons that we have seen
Stumbling back next to me
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
I've seen right through and underneath
And you make me better
Better... better...

[Lady Saw: ]
You are my real Prince Charmin'
Like the heat from the fire
You were always burnin'
And each time you're around
My body keeps stallin'
For your touch
Your kisses and your sweet romancin'
There's an underside to you
That so many adore
Aside from your temper
Everything else secure
You're good for me, baby
Of that, I'm sure
Over and over again
I want more

[Gwen Stefani:]
You've used up all your coupons
And all you've got left is me
And somehow I'm full of forgiveness
I guess it's meant to be

(Repeat Chorus)

You're really lovely
Underneath it all
You want to love me
Underneath it all
I'm really lucky
Underneath it all
And you're really lovely
You're really lovely

I admit, I've never really listened to the lyric on this song before (and, in case you don't know which song this actually is, it's called "Underneath It All," and it's by No Doubt, and Gwen Stefani wrote it for Gavin Rossdale, who later became her husband). So, as I was singing it, I was realizing, "Oh, shit, this is about us!" Which, of course, led to the inner monologue of, "Wait, is he saying he loves me?", which inevitably led to the question, "What does this mean?"

And then...

The past two nights, he's slept over with an ex of his. Par for the course. And I hate myself for getting excited.

*sigh*

I'll never learn.

Fuck'm.